Last week was rough to say the least. I got some bad news on Friday , which added to the stress that I’ve already been feeling. In spite of some difficult circumstances I’ve been pretty grounded in the fact that God is in control of everything until Friday morning.
My emotions rushed over me for a few minutes, and I broke down and cried. I thought about the obstacles that I’m facing and the obstacles that my mom is facing, and almost immediately I felt silly for being anxious about it.
Philippians 4:6 says, “Don’t be anxious about anything, but by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”
In my heart I know that God will carry me through the things that are happening now. He’s been so faithful to me in everything else, yet I still felt a few moments of fear in which I let myself crumble.
After crying for a few minutes I remembered a story that I had read in the book of Mark about a man named Legion. The part of the story that hit me was that even the demons in the story had to recognize Jesus’ authority. When we worship God fear and confusion melts away because it doesn’t exist in the presence of God.
I turned on my favorite worship playlist and spent the next several minutes just praising God for never leaving me. I thanked Him for everything He’s done to make my life worth living. I just basked in who He is, and I immediately began to feel better.
I still need God to move in some specific situations for my mom and me, but I have peace. I have a renewed understanding that He’s going to provide for us, protect us, and love us regardless of the circumstances we face.
Most of my life I think I’ve confused having peace with the absence of problems. When everything is going smoothly it’s easy to feel peace, but things happen. Life isn’t always perfect. In 2 Corinthians Paul “boasted in his weakness” because God is so strong.
Recognizing that He will be strong when I’m weak definitely gives me the freedom to let go of worry and fear.
Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.
2 Corinthians 3:17